Bullying and Self Harm

Believe in yoursel

Sometimes, we tend to make words or have pranks at someone that we aren’t aware that what we do would result to something tragic.

Bullying or being bullied is quite normal while growing up. But it’s horrid knowing that nowadays, it’s one of the reasons of cutting or self harm.

Back in high school, I admit that I had bullied someone but I haven’t pushed it to the point that it destroyed someone’s confidence had caused depression. Bullying could give satisfaction, but it’s not worth it. In the end it wouldn’t do any good. So please, if you’ve been doing it. I advise you to stop. Continue reading

For the love of God…

love of GodOriginal article by John Benneth

I was looking up browsing through the Concordance to check a certain verse about Love… All through my life, I always yearn for something revolutionary; may it be an idea, principle, thought, imagination, or something like that. I love and take delight in discovering facts & truth that would surprise and definitely disturb me, positively (wink). So! Something caught my sight when I noticed a particular verse, it’s 2 Corinthians 5:15.

Check it out and help yourself.

It’s a remedy to all the problems & struggles & battles of life. And that’s what caught my attention.

It says,

“For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died in substitute for all, therefore all have died; and he died in substitute for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him, who for their sake died and was raised.” Continue reading

As the spider knits its web…

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As the spider knits its web…

The spider moved its legs

Came down the green curtain

Paraded, crisped, paused, paraded

Perfect place to web a home

It heard shouts, rumbles

Noise was drawing near

A door opened in a roar

Swallowing the terror of the hidden crime

A girl, cries for help

Yet nothing but walls called hear

Following, men of three

Smiling – no- laughing Continue reading

Congratulation Graduates!

Graduation

In the Philippine Educational System, March or April will be the months were classes come to its end, from its rough year or learning, and today few of my friends are graduating from college. So happy that they survived the rollercoaster-horrortrain-underwaterdive torture of college. They had experienced torture so they deserve this educational orgasm. But honestly, college is not that really hard, it’s how you perceive it – having fun with everything, living the actual life.

So as I salute to the dear graduating zombies, I’ll offer them this message.

Hansel said to Gretel, “Let us drop these breadcrumbs so that together we find our way home because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.” Continue reading

What Happened?

What happened?

So it’s been like two weeks since my last post right? Dang, I just wasted precious blogging days… But well, I would just like to maybe tell you what happened to me lately.

So, in this strangely humored fate of mine, in this unstoppable evolution of the world, a lot of things happened. So I was in the height of this persona-reflection satisfaction weigh down (this happened last November and I’m just brave enough to face it this February) giving me one of the greatest decision-making hell so far. What happened was that I found this job, which I could really raise a where my heart is awareness band which means I have to quit the current job which I also love and I’m comfortable with. And yeah, I quit my job after a heart and brain sleepover debate. So what turned out was that this job I’m trying to apply, took me days, even weeks to really update me that “Hey dude, you’re in! Congrats!” or “Sorry dude, you failed it. Now go home to your mamma!” But until now, no updates. So for the past weeks I’m jobless! Hooray welcome to the world of unemployment. But I’m patient, I could wait, as what they say, great things come to those who wait right? Praise to God for that!

The next thing that happened to me was that my motherboard, or this mother-packer-board of my pc just committed suicide while I’m not around. And that gives you the answer while I’m onlinely (adverb of online) absent. This leads me to read my pending books and even read Looking for Alaska for almost 15 jobless slash pc-less hours. Which I’m really thankful, the silver lining of every cloud. Haha

The heaven is really pouring something to bother me these days. But they failed, because I never let them bother me. For I’m still awesome! Who cares if my pc broke? Who cares if I’m jobless? I know, it’s clear I shouldn’t let these last for long, but damn, for this moment, I don’t really care at all.

I have an awesome life so far, so let me savor it for a moment.

So that’s it! This is my update.

Have a happy blogging!

With much awesomeness,

-Janoel

You Versus You

versus

So it’s quite late now. And honestly, I’m having the most painful headache since, I don’t know maybe five or three years ago. Dang it! I’m not really this drug dependent freak or even a not-so drug dependent one, not that I hate medicines, but I don’t really trust them. Not that I haven’t tried any, but if I could just handle it myself, why rely on something scientifically commercial?

What I believe is that our mind functions as everything, as everything it could think of. It holds both the medicine and disease – have both the questions and answers right? I strongly agree with that mind-over-matter cliché. Back in highschool, not being a masochist or any, but everytime I feel pain, I will just keep myself isolated from the world, feel the pain, until I’m thinking that I’m not feeling it, until I strongly let myself believe that I’m really free from pain, and the feeling was like – Hurray I’m the master of myself! Let’s celebrate! Yes! I’ve been successful with that highschool experiment, but sometimes, I also failed. I don’t really know the exact formula, but it’s just convincing yourself to be away or absent from something that bothers you. For giving attention to it, thinking about it, only let you feel so much pain. Get destructed, as what they say, destruction is the best deception. But in general it’s always hard fighting yourself. Self is a great bitch! Continue reading

Letter to Mr. Green

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So last week, just as to the recommendation of my friends and also you all bloggers, I started to read a John Green book, which honestly, I promised myself to finish the pending books before I dig myself into such commitment. But I did it anyway.

I read this The Fault in Our Stars and damn, I just had the roller coaster ride of my life. The morning after, not really morning because it’s already afternoon, I decided to send Mr. Green a sort of message for what he did to me.

I don’t know if it’s proper to post it here, but since that my reaction to the book, or sort of a review was included it here, I’m still gonna post it anyway. Continue reading

The Storm

the storm

The Storm

She rolled the flag down,

An answer to the sea bird’s call

She looked upon the sky,

Beneath the horizon,

Darkness is crawling.

The wind didn’t sing,

Nor dance, nor cheer,

But fear laid in its coldness,

A breath of untune retribution.

Suddenly, she’s underneath its blanket.

Lights blinked in unpatterned instance,

Illuminates the world she feared.

Fierce lights came hitting her senses.

In each blink, she saw her sailor.

Smiling, crying, dying.

She’s been spellcasted,

She heard the voice,

The grasping horror of the darkness.

Ravishing, heavy, loud.

She ran inside her cabin,

Afraid, terrified, haunted.

She cried in fear like it was the first time.

Tears streamed down heavy and warm.

She remembered,

It’s been a year since her sailor died.