“I will miss the future I might have had with you.”
He read and slowly folded the parchment which seemed to be yellowed by age. On a separate piece he inked ‘I miss you too’ under the pile of the same phrases.
He counted them. 37.
He laughed. “I miss you for 37 years.”
So again, just like what he’d been doing for the past years, he tucked himself on the table started composing a reply. His 37th letter. His 37th reply to a letter he had from her, 37 years ago.
I don’t where to start.
But I owe a lot, to a lot of souls. To you, to this blog, and to myself. In which I would like to apologise, to being not there, to being non-existent, to being just a history (that if I did have a history). But yeah, I’m really really sorry.
Now let’s go back to straight talk. I’m happy to, uhmm, inform you that, well, I’m back! (Hooray!) I’ve been long and gone. It’s been a year isn’t it? I’ve been silent, probably you could say that I’m in a state-of-coma.
I lot of distractions came, occupied me, kept me busy, but I managed to now creep away from the silence.
So here I am now. I’m back and alive! Woo-hoo!
See you again blogsters!
Missing you all,
Janoel
P.S. Enjoy this song.
I’ve been lost for so long, and that is nothing to be proud of. But I deliberately had a good news. I already got a job. Oh yeah! That sounds cool, right? You guys are keep on telling me to go get a life and hooray, I already got one. But it’s not just any job, it’s a cool one. Although I’m still bad at it, yet hell yeah people, I think I’m loving it. So cheers to us!
Oh another thing! Because of this new job of mine, I couldn’t able to update my blog everyday or every other day. So, I really am sorry for that. But no problem, I’ll make it sure that I could maybe update at least once a week. So how that sounds?
I guess this is for now. Just have a great jolly day everyone!
I’m so in love you all!
-Janoel
In the Philippine Educational System, March or April will be the months were classes come to its end, from its rough year or learning, and today few of my friends are graduating from college. So happy that they survived the rollercoaster-horrortrain-underwaterdive torture of college. They had experienced torture so they deserve this educational orgasm. But honestly, college is not that really hard, it’s how you perceive it – having fun with everything, living the actual life.
So as I salute to the dear graduating zombies, I’ll offer them this message.
Hansel said to Gretel, “Let us drop these breadcrumbs so that together we find our way home because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.” Continue reading
So it’s been like two weeks since my last post right? Dang, I just wasted precious blogging days… But well, I would just like to maybe tell you what happened to me lately.
So, in this strangely humored fate of mine, in this unstoppable evolution of the world, a lot of things happened. So I was in the height of this persona-reflection satisfaction weigh down (this happened last November and I’m just brave enough to face it this February) giving me one of the greatest decision-making hell so far. What happened was that I found this job, which I could really raise a where my heart is awareness band which means I have to quit the current job which I also love and I’m comfortable with. And yeah, I quit my job after a heart and brain sleepover debate. So what turned out was that this job I’m trying to apply, took me days, even weeks to really update me that “Hey dude, you’re in! Congrats!” or “Sorry dude, you failed it. Now go home to your mamma!” But until now, no updates. So for the past weeks I’m jobless! Hooray welcome to the world of unemployment. But I’m patient, I could wait, as what they say, great things come to those who wait right? Praise to God for that!
The next thing that happened to me was that my motherboard, or this mother-packer-board of my pc just committed suicide while I’m not around. And that gives you the answer while I’m onlinely (adverb of online) absent. This leads me to read my pending books and even read Looking for Alaska for almost 15 jobless slash pc-less hours. Which I’m really thankful, the silver lining of every cloud. Haha
The heaven is really pouring something to bother me these days. But they failed, because I never let them bother me. For I’m still awesome! Who cares if my pc broke? Who cares if I’m jobless? I know, it’s clear I shouldn’t let these last for long, but damn, for this moment, I don’t really care at all.
I have an awesome life so far, so let me savor it for a moment.
So that’s it! This is my update.
Have a happy blogging!
With much awesomeness,
-Janoel
She rolled the flag down,
An answer to the sea bird’s call
She looked upon the sky,
Beneath the horizon,
Darkness is crawling.
The wind didn’t sing,
Nor dance, nor cheer,
But fear laid in its coldness,
A breath of untune retribution.
Suddenly, she’s underneath its blanket.
Lights blinked in unpatterned instance,
Illuminates the world she feared.
Fierce lights came hitting her senses.
In each blink, she saw her sailor.
Smiling, crying, dying.
She’s been spellcasted,
She heard the voice,
The grasping horror of the darkness.
Ravishing, heavy, loud.
She ran inside her cabin,
Afraid, terrified, haunted.
She cried in fear like it was the first time.
Tears streamed down heavy and warm.
She remembered,
It’s been a year since her sailor died.
In His Thoughts 