Bullying and Self Harm

Believe in yoursel

Sometimes, we tend to make words or have pranks at someone that we aren’t aware that what we do would result to something tragic.

Bullying or being bullied is quite normal while growing up. But it’s horrid knowing that nowadays, it’s one of the reasons of cutting or self harm.

Back in high school, I admit that I had bullied someone but I haven’t pushed it to the point that it destroyed someone’s confidence had caused depression. Bullying could give satisfaction, but it’s not worth it. In the end it wouldn’t do any good. So please, if you’ve been doing it. I advise you to stop. Continue reading

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What’s with your TFIOS?

It’s 18th February, 2014 and this is probably late but I’m gonna put this in my blog anyway.

So last two weeks ago, “The Fault in Our Stars” trailer had been released by FOX. So here went me, the ever-TFIOS-addict started to view the trailer and I could still remember how I felt back then. I was so literally  diufsgoiuyreoihdlk ashcxal sdjapodusapo dujadhdiydwey rehwrolwhelk whslkdlatyqiuwtyre0329ryhwoi bdjhsakdbkb dlwkd nwl’jfdlwh fklshfkjbknbdl ks;hskjhkshgiw ugiwbwklbdkjb. That feeling of excitement, appreciation and gratefulness. That you’re going to see this in big screen.

I know I’m acting rubbish and stupid and gay and whatever trash word may be, but that’s what I felt.

I don’t know what to add or say. It’s just that I’ve got something to say about it but I can’t make them into words.

So I’m just going to let you watch the trailer again and let me know what do you think?

For the love of God…

love of GodOriginal article by John Benneth

I was looking up browsing through the Concordance to check a certain verse about Love… All through my life, I always yearn for something revolutionary; may it be an idea, principle, thought, imagination, or something like that. I love and take delight in discovering facts & truth that would surprise and definitely disturb me, positively (wink). So! Something caught my sight when I noticed a particular verse, it’s 2 Corinthians 5:15.

Check it out and help yourself.

It’s a remedy to all the problems & struggles & battles of life. And that’s what caught my attention.

It says,

“For the love of Christ controls us, because we have concluded this: that one has died in substitute for all, therefore all have died; and he died in substitute for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves but for him, who for their sake died and was raised.” Continue reading

Speaking of that love…

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“One night Pietro Crispe sang. Macondo woke up in a kind of angelic stupor that was caused by a zither that deserved more than this world and a voice that led one to believe that no other person on earth could feel such love. Pietro Crispe then saw the lights go on in every window in town except that of Amaranta. On November second, All Soul’s Day, his brother opened the store and found all the lamps lighted, all the music boxes opened, and all the clocks striking an interminable hour, and in the midst of that concert he found Pietro Crispe at the desk in the rear with his wrists cut by the razor and his hands thrusts into a basin of benzoin.”

An excerpt from One Hundred Years of Solitude by Jose Garcia Marquez

We can’t determine what lies ahead of us. But when we truly found the very person that would mean a world to us, that’s the beginning of our spontaneous daydreamings of how we will live our life, how we design it and how we end it in the favor of love.

Love, really is not a work of fairies and dusts, that will just happen once we wish upon a star. It’s an accident or unseen course that will just appear before we know it. It will just be there sitting comfortable on the sofa of the living room, not daring to knock, not asking for permission to enter. Bearing bags of pleasure, pains and tragedies. This is reality, love is a general thing that even makes my own perception of it unreliable. But that’s how I look at it, and that’s how I believe.

Our ability to care, to wonder what will happen of us and do things in the desires of our heart will wheel us to consequences usually what we haven’t transpired. In the process, it’s painful and gratifying, much as what we needed to grow and mature. But in the end, it’s a two faced embrace of whether a heartache or happiness. And what’s more terrible, it’s a tragedy that whether we like it or not, will always have its casualty.

Congratulation Graduates!

Graduation

In the Philippine Educational System, March or April will be the months were classes come to its end, from its rough year or learning, and today few of my friends are graduating from college. So happy that they survived the rollercoaster-horrortrain-underwaterdive torture of college. They had experienced torture so they deserve this educational orgasm. But honestly, college is not that really hard, it’s how you perceive it – having fun with everything, living the actual life.

So as I salute to the dear graduating zombies, I’ll offer them this message.

Hansel said to Gretel, “Let us drop these breadcrumbs so that together we find our way home because losing our way would be the most cruel of things.” Continue reading

You Versus You

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So it’s quite late now. And honestly, I’m having the most painful headache since, I don’t know maybe five or three years ago. Dang it! I’m not really this drug dependent freak or even a not-so drug dependent one, not that I hate medicines, but I don’t really trust them. Not that I haven’t tried any, but if I could just handle it myself, why rely on something scientifically commercial?

What I believe is that our mind functions as everything, as everything it could think of. It holds both the medicine and disease – have both the questions and answers right? I strongly agree with that mind-over-matter cliché. Back in highschool, not being a masochist or any, but everytime I feel pain, I will just keep myself isolated from the world, feel the pain, until I’m thinking that I’m not feeling it, until I strongly let myself believe that I’m really free from pain, and the feeling was like – Hurray I’m the master of myself! Let’s celebrate! Yes! I’ve been successful with that highschool experiment, but sometimes, I also failed. I don’t really know the exact formula, but it’s just convincing yourself to be away or absent from something that bothers you. For giving attention to it, thinking about it, only let you feel so much pain. Get destructed, as what they say, destruction is the best deception. But in general it’s always hard fighting yourself. Self is a great bitch! Continue reading

Letter to Mr. Green

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So last week, just as to the recommendation of my friends and also you all bloggers, I started to read a John Green book, which honestly, I promised myself to finish the pending books before I dig myself into such commitment. But I did it anyway.

I read this The Fault in Our Stars and damn, I just had the roller coaster ride of my life. The morning after, not really morning because it’s already afternoon, I decided to send Mr. Green a sort of message for what he did to me.

I don’t know if it’s proper to post it here, but since that my reaction to the book, or sort of a review was included it here, I’m still gonna post it anyway. Continue reading

Love Letter to the Filipinos

Letters

This is an amazing letter wrote by an American Expat, David H. Harwell titled Love Letter to the Filipinos and published on Inquirer.net.

Just trying to share since it inspired me in some ways. Of how a certain person look at something differently. This gives me further thoughts that things, bad or good, happen because we let it happen and let it stay at it is.

As a Filipino, I also had a dream to someday travel the lands of America, Australia and UK more than my country, not that I don’t appreciate what’s been offered here, but it’s that thought that sometimes, we need to go out from our own shelter and discover the world outside. It’s the desire to know others, learn from their stories and experience the best and worst of their world. Because after all, life is like that. Life is all abut living, and living – it is all about feeling, experiencing, learning, having the best and worst, discovering and just moving.

Hope it will inspire you in some ways like how it did to me. Continue reading

Naked, do you?

It’s 30 minutes before 12 midnight. John Veseley’s A Naked Twist in my Story album is currently playing on my playlist. The window is widely open  on my right side where a lunar phenomenon can be seen on the sky. The night is cold, I’m in my boxers and tank top, I feel my body shivering from the cold and obviously see my fingers shake as I type this random thought. I just let my usual 11PM sleep time pass, sleep is not calling me.

I’m playing this Spooky Aquarium sort of game and getting drown by John’s serenades to keep myself calm. I was in the middle of this peace, when suddenly a thought came on my mind. Things or persons are different really when they’re naked.

True. Really, they are different when they are naked. Continue reading

Same Love

I guess, maybe the greatest love story in the world is not by a prince and princess, but by two both men sharing the love they deserve.

I found this video by Macklemore & Ryan Lewis titled Same Love. It’s just so inspiring how certain people who suffered from discrimination and criticism from society fight for something they deserve. For in the end, what matters is not what the society speaks for you, but how you decide yourself for the happiness you deserve.

Love is a complex thing, it’s not stated that love is something for a man to a woman or a woman to a man only, it’s something we share and acquire, regardless of sex, religion, principle and race.

I salute the people behind this music, for it’s not just a song to share or a story to inspire, it’s the reality that the world should accept.

Watch. Listen. Be inspired. Continue reading